Where to begin?

I have always though blogs were a bit useless. Why would someone feel it necessary to talk about themselves? What good would that do someone else (besides, of course, to keep in touch with distant relatives and friends) to know what is going on in my head? Then I really began to search out motivation and inspiration on weight loss. I started realizing that I have been reading blogs of other people struggling with the same thing I am~and it's helping me. I was being motivated by these people that I didn't know. I related to them, when I couldn't relate to anyone else around me on this level.
I've been working on weight loss for ....well, for my entire 33 years of life....but the first time I have had ANY success has been in the last two years. I am....ok, I'm saying it out loud for the whole world to hear....305lbs. WHEW.....there it is, in black and white! Crazy! My highest weight (that I know of....I avoided scales for years~big surprise) was 330lbs, that was in February of 2008. At that time I won an opportunity to participate in a local weight loss contest. I met with a personal trainer, they put me on the right path as far as food and exercise goes...and I was off. In three months I lost almost 50lbs. After the contest I was awarded 3 more months free at the gym (going to the gym is a topic in itself), which I gladly used. In the next 3 months I lost about another 10lbs, bringing my weight to 270lbs. Well, I continued in the gym for a while...slacked off a little from my diet. Then a little became a lot...then--with many different excuses--I stopped going to the gym. My main reason was that the weather was becoming so nice and there was a park with a track much closer. I told myself that for now, I would just go to the track every day........bahahaha! Well, as soon as the weather was a little rainy, or began to get cooler....that stopped, and by that time, I was too ashamed to go back into the gym with the trainers who helped me. My weight climbed back up to 310.
That is where I was a few months back. I began a weight loss group with some in my community , and those I go to church. I needed motivation, and mostly accountability. Well, it took three more months for me to really, really feel motivated. It actually took three weeks with weight gains and finally going over my beginning weight. I weighed 311.
---Ok, now I'm acting like "now I have my weight all under control". No. That was just three weeks ago. I've held my motivation for three weeks. 305...that's me.
I needed something else to inspire me. Through this blog, I hope to have successes and become an inspiration for others. I also want this for extra accountability. I mean, I have my weekly weight loss support group, but I need a place to write all the little struggles~~not just my pounds. No one in my group is as large as I am. Not really anyone even close. I have so many little things that affect me, that I wouldn't even want to tell them about. I want this to be a place for me to tell someone....or just a place for me to come back to, to remember where I was.
I'm not a great writer, but I want to write from my heart. I hope I can keep this up. When I have more time I'll talk about the name of my blog.